Father, drench me in Proverbs 31.

"I will no longer be weighted down by friends and family talks with the concern of my biological clock, because I serve the author of time...who is not subject to time, but I am subject to Him. He has the ability to stop, fast forward, or rewind time. If we could role play, you would be Abraham and I would be Sarah; or you would be Isaac and I would be Rebekah--a servan'ts answered prayer. I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh, made up of your rib Adam. And once we meet, like electrons, I will be drawn to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom....We were all made in His image, but you have the ability to refect, project, and even detect the Son. If I were to explain what you were to look like, you'd have to be a star. A son of the Son. I would gain energy simply by the light that you shine on me. I would need you in order to complete my photosynthesis....I will wait for you.

And I will know you, because when you speak...
I will be reminded of Solomon's wisdom.
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses.
Your faith will remind me of Abraham.
Your confidence in God's word will remind me of Daniel.
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul.
Your heart for God will remind me of David.
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah.
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph.
Your ability to abandon your own will will remind me of the disciples.
And your ability to love selflessly and uncondionally will remind me of Christ.

But I won't need to identify you by any special math piece, or any special marks; because His word will be tatted all over your heart.

And you will know me, and you will fine me where the boldness of Ester meets the warm closeness of Ruth. Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary, which is ingulfed in the tears of a praying Hannah.

I will be the one drenched in Proverbs 31.

Waiting for you."

These are not my words, but this aligns perfectly with my heart. I desire all these things. I desire these characteristics in a man, and I also desire to be anything like these noble women who love the Lord.

But more than anything, I desire to submit to the will of my Father. The author of the greatest love story of all time. I desire to trust Him completely, and wait on Him patiently. He is the only one who truly satisfies my every desire, and who continues to faithfully pursue every corner of my heart. I trust Him. I love Him. So even if He calls me to a life of singleness, I will be satisfied in His love. I will be giddy in His presence and tickled by His touch.

Whatever He may have instore for me, I trust His heart and plan for me.

I will be the one drenched in Proverbs 31 not for the approval of man, but to bring joy to my Father.

(Here is the website for the poem. The whole thing is powerful. Her words are powerful and the way the Lord speaks through her is powerful.)
http://theresurgence.com/2011/04/06/a-poem-for-all-single-people-pass-it-on

I Will Wait...

Walking back from my exam I was just talking to the Lord and praising Him for giving me desires He is revealing to me more and more every day, but also surrendering them back to Him...because they're good, but my focus needs to be on the Lord, not on my feelings.

And I hear, "Wait".

Such a simple word, but yet sometimes so hard to do. Waiting can sometimes be the hardest thing to do. It is often the most beneficial, but definitely the hardest!

When I was walking to my car I just started praising the Lord in my own song--I don't know where it came from, but here it is....

I will wait on you Lord.
It's you that I want.
All my hope is in you,
I know my future is secure.
So I will wait.
And sing praises to you name.
I will wait.
And seek only your face.
I will wait.
Becaust I trust your plan for me.
You've written every detail, every person that I'll meet.
You see the final picture, each stroke makes it complete.
So, I will wait on you, and it's you Lord that I seeek.
You love me and have good things instore.
In this waiting time I will grow to love you more!
You are all I want.
You're all I seek.
Without you, I am incomplete.

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God, give me more patience as I wait for you. I trust you and your perfect plan for me.

I will wait upon you Lord....

Somalia

I guess about a month ago World Mandate came to Beltway and spoke and stirred us up for going and loving the world. When we were there they told us to ask the Lord to give us a country. I, with little faith in hearing anything, asked the Lord for a country. And He answered me. He gave me Somalia. I didn't even know there was a country named that! I thought I had made it up in my head. So, when we were walking out of the church I whipped out my iPhone and googled it. Somalia is in fact a country....

I've been praying about it and researching it ever since then off and on. I believe that the Lord is calling me there, but yesterday when I was researching He gave me a few things He wants me to do to prepare me before I go.

1. Learn Somali or Arabic.
2. Study Sunni Isalm.
3. Pay half my student loans off.
4. Learn to live simply.

These are things I believe the Lord specifically calling me to do before He sends me there. Somalia is an evil, dark, and dangerous country. I'm beginning that I can't just go....as much as I want to. There are some practical things the Lord wants me to learn and grow in before I go.

Do I believe the Lord is calling me to go there one day? Yes!
Do I believe Somalia will be my home one day? Yes!
Do I believe the Lord is growing me in things here before it's time for Him to send me? Yes!
Do I believe that day is right when I get out of college? No.

I know the Lord isn't done with me. There is still so many things He is going to teach me and things in my life where I still need to grow.

Something Lindsay said today confirmed my thinking that He wasn't calling me there right now, but in the future. She said, "99% of the time when the Lord gives us a word, it's for the future, eventhough we want it to be for right now."

So now, I will wait patiently upon the Lord and pray without ceasing for that countries hearts to be softened to the gospel; and for the Holy Spirit to fall on those people!

I also am praying the Lord will give me more of His heart for Muslims and more of an understanding of their religion and rituals.

Just more of His heart in general.

These precious babies need to know the love of the Lord!

Lord, mold me to what you want and send me out! I want to be the vessle of your love that loves these babies!!!!