Jesus, Lover of my Soul

Right now I am in a season of singleness, and have been for a while. The Lord is teaching me a lot. I'm learning that when you seek him with all your heart he will give you the desires of your heart. I'm learning that he is the only one who can take the loneliness away on Saturday nights when my roommates are all with their boyfriends. He's the only one who can make me beautiful when I feel undesirable or unworthy of love. Because he lives in my heart I am beautiful... Because he made me I am beautiful... He is the only one who can complete me. I could live my life striving to be in a relationship. In fact that's what the world expects us to do. Chase the boy until he lets you catch him. Run after love until you reach it, because if you don't you will be alone for the rest of your life.... But, I know that is false! When you are a lover of the Lord you are never alone. "When we work, God will wait; but when we wait, God will work" Lady in Waiting So, something I'm learning now is to seek the Lord to let him fill every intimate corner of my heart. And, for the past month or so he has been doing exactly that. I still have the desire to be married and have a family, but I know that is not what will complete me. Jesus has already done that. I look forward to meeting the man the Lord has made for me. But for now, I am finding my joy in serving the Lord and dancing with him. I have a joy better than any man could every give me. My joy comes from the Lord. "As the father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love....I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete." John 15: 9, 11

How GREAT is our God!!!

A couple of months ago my Pa went to the MD Anderson and received a very bad report. The doctors told him his cancer had spread so much that if the medicine and treatment they were going to put him on worked, he would have 4-5 years to live. But, if it didn't work, he would have 1-2 years to live. Either way, he would eventually lose his life to cancer. Boy was this hard news for my family! But we continued to pray and know that God is our only healer. The doctors can do what they think will help, but it is in God's hands. We kept praying, HARD! My grandpa went to the doctor the week before Thanksgiving. His PSA count went down from 137 to 20!!!!! Praise the Lord! His doctor stayed up all night thinking about him and trying to decide if he needed to still have chemotherapy because they want his count to be below 13. Well, that night at life group we prayed for our families, and of course Pa was on my heart. So, we prayed! Then later that night I felt the Lord wanted me to intercede for my grandpa at that time. So, I was obiedient and stayed up all night praying for him and that he wouldn't have to do chemo (the same time his doctor was up all night thinking about him. I really believe the Lord was speaking to her while I was pleading with him!) The next morning the doctor called him and said she stayed up all night thinking about him and decided he didn't need chemo, and sent him home!!!! Praise the Lord again!!!! :) THEN, he went to the doctor this week and his PSA count went DOWN even more!!!! from 20 to 11.7!!!!!! :)))) The Lord is doing incredible work in my grandpa and in my family. I am so thankful that he is showing favor on us and overcoming the enemy who causes disease. I believe the Lord does not cause sickness, becaus why would he inflict something on his children that he has already died for? That's just silly. I believe God answers when we seek him with all our heart. There is not a doubt in my mind of that! Through this hardship I am falling more and more in love the with the Lord and his faithfulness! I am so glad I serve the God who has compassion on his children and the passion and power to heal them! He is so good! "The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him." Psalm 28:7