Two weeks ago today my Pa went home to be with Jesus...
You'd think after two weeks it would have gotten easier, but it hasn't. If anything, it's harder. I miss him so much more. I miss my family so much more! I know Pa will want me to move on and be happy, and there are moments when I am very happy, but there are also moments when I am sad. I'm starting to have more happy/content moments, but I'm still sad. I also feel like I haven't had time to be sad. I haven't had time to cry, to weep. I feel like I've been shoved back into school and work and being social and I just want time to be sad. So, that's what I'm doing right now. I'm being sad.....On a Saturday night I sit in my room, crying...
I know these tears will turn to laughing one day and this sadness will turn into joy. That is what I'm clinging to.
That is my only HOPE!
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